And there you shall serve other gods of wood and stone. And you shall become a horror, a proverb, and a byword among all the peoples where the Lord will lead you away.
A lot of people have a problem with the God of the Old Testament.
I am not one of those people.
He is the same God of the New Testament, too, and He knows when we need to be reprimanded. And if you don’t believe humanity needs a little guidance, I’m afraid you’ve never met another human being.
Being human is hard. Interacting with other human beings is hard. I’m a lifelong introvert that has learned the language of the extrovert. Through experience, my old job (at one point I was the training manager for the entire company. Every day I cried inside tears), I became what I saw on TV: someone with no off button.
But that’s not really who I am. And 2019 is the year of becoming what God has always intended for me to be.
My first step? Destroy the untrue parts of myself.
For me, this pivotal first step came in deleting all my social media.
I tried to convince myself that it was important that I stayed in touch with my past. That I posted photos of my daughter. That I ambushed my husband in the hallway for an impromptu photo session even though he hates having his photo taken and the Internet in general just so I could post it with a caption that said, “Love this sleepy guy.”
I may have even taken a selfie or two.
This is what it boils down to: I no longer care.
Not about my past. Not about people seeing photos of my face. Not of attacking my poor husband with a camera and viciously thumbing through filters that make him seem more “peppy.”
I don’t care what you think anymore.
And that’s the only way I can really write for you.
I know this year is the year I discover something through my words.
It’s the year you read my heart and think, “Oh. Okay. I understand now.”
And not necessarily understand me but maybe understand you. Understand what the Lord has planted.
Because your field is barren right now but there’s so much growth under the surface. Don’t try and snap away at the perfect angle making it something it’s not.
I pray as a society we all stop proving something that doesn’t matter and might not even exist for us. And that’s okay. Please help us to pull the plug on the distractions that weigh us down and remove our full attention away from the people we love. Please keep us focused on this moment, the “now,” because before we know it, the “now” will perish like we eventually will, and all that time spent sprucing up the image of who we really are will be for nothing. Let us instead turn to you, rely on you to be the one to give us what we need instead of the approval of other people.
TODAY’S READING: Deuteronomy 30-31