And there was no longer manna for the people of Israel, but they ate of the fruit of the land of Canaan that year.
My 2019 will be the 2019 the Lord has planned.
I can feel it. The course of something great coming along, and I truly believe it’s why I’ve been tested with bouts of depression lately when I haven’t suffered from it in a very long time.
Opportunity is knocking. And Satan hates that.
But I have such great support surrounding me including a community group at my church that has been the gift we’ve been praying for.
I’m not a sharer. I don’t do “sharing.” It’s like asking me to be “one of the girls.”
Ow. It hurts.
People I’ve known for years only know what I want them to know about me. Other than all the soul baring I like to randomly do on the Internet, of course.
But I digress.
Being a part of a group of people that I’m accountable to, have to look in the eye and say “I’m not okay this week,” seems like a terrifying venture. But I see all of them do it with ease and everyone building them back up and that’s when I understand that the alternative is what’s terrifying.
Living alone. Living in the dark.
And I need that support, that eternal grace from good-hearted people that reminds me God is doing the same for me and my family.
So, my goals?
- Start a weekly podcast about faith, writing, motherhood, wifedom, and natural health & living.
- Continue writing these devotionals to reach out to those who may have a toe or two in the dark because I know exactly how that feels.
- Keep living my faith on the daily without fear of what others think because at the end of the day, you can’t understand what you can’t spiritually see.
- Have patience and understanding for these people because I used to be one of them.
My feet are dancing on the edge of something beyond me. God has opened the door. It’s my decision if and how I’m going to walk.
Thank you for the gift of friends, of finding those who unabashedly share themselves and make me feel comfortable enough to do the same. It’s not always in our arsenal to be transparent enough to let the light in, but please remind us that living in the dark, alone, without that outlet of communicating what’s burdening our hearts is not living at all. Please help each one of us to turn to you and follow your lead so that we can all find that safe place to be who we truly are.
TODAY’S READING: Joshua 5