Things are different.
And I’m not scared.
I’ve always been good with change. We used to move around a lot and it got to the point that I craved it.
In fact, I sometimes get bored sitting here in one place.
And since five years ago, since those evenings when I was locked tight and couldn’t move in bed, and I could literally see what hell will be like (ask me about my testimony some time. It’s a real trip), I haven’t worried about God’s decisions.
Right now? I’m sitting quietly, softly applauding Him.
Fear is a curious thing. It likes to act like it’s own animal that’s bigger and stronger than you.
When in reality, it’s just a cockroach under your shoe.
Because when it comes down it, the fear of God is the only fear worth harboring.
I had to learn that. I had to train my brain, renew my mind as Paul implores, and realize that I AM EVERYTHING GOD CREATED (Romans 12:2).
I’m not a small part of me. I’m not my fear. I have been equipped to live through this time and any other moment He hands me.
However, for the past two days, I’ve felt lethargic. Tired bordering on depressed. Being the numbskull I am, I had a hard time figuring out why.
Sometimes the enemy’s deception can be a little tricky to figure out.
I realized through prayer, through wrenching my mind and heart out of that particular malaise, that he wants me to crave sleep and complacency.
Because I have time now, my friends, to make a difference in my life and the life of others.
Wouldn’t it be awesome for Satan if he made us feel dull, tired, and afraid?
(Not to mention distracted by a million memes, but I digress).
Here’s what I request:
- READ YOUR BIBLE. You have the time now. Get to it. Learn what God needs you to know. Here’s the Bible study I’m using: http://www.thebiblerecap.com/start
- CREATE PRAYER TIME. Prayer is an active endeavor and deserves the respect necessary to take priority in our lives. God DESERVES that respect. Let’s thwart the negativity that can come with a situation like this with hearts crying out to the Almighty.
- DO SOMETHING GOD IS CALLING YOU TO DO. Ever feel like you were made to do something? That’s how I feel about writing. And by pushing off my talent that God gave me and wants me to use for his purposes is sinning, my friends. Don’t be like I’ve been these past two days. Give God all of you and complete His will.
None of this is easy. I’m not saying that. But God has an incredible way of taking our hands and leading us down the road and somehow, it ends up being far less bumpy than we had ever imagined.