All the thoughts in my head.

Last week I started getting panic attacks again.An all out black fear that wouldn't let me breathe.It tried to convince me God doesn't exist.And I was choking on that lie, that misguided belief.Before Jesus, I pretty much ascribed to the theory that my mind was dented sometime during the manufacturing process and all of my… Continue reading All the thoughts in my head.


2/11/2019 Devotional

The Lord said to Joshua, “Do not be afraid of them; I have given them into your hand. Not one of them will be able to withstand you.” Joshua 10:8 I became a Christian after months of demonic attacks. You know. Girl stuff. It's a very interesting feeling, that next morning, waking up and going about your daily routine… Continue reading 2/11/2019 Devotional

Finding road, not water.

I started an email account for my daughter when she was a baby. And I wrote emails to her pretty regularly so you have to imagine that inbox looking like the chronicled thoughts of a post-partum lunatic. I mean, I don't want to brag, but at some points in my life, I could have definitely… Continue reading Finding road, not water.

2/4/2019 Devotional

And Joshua made peace with them and made a covenant with them, to let them live, and the leaders of the congregation swore to them. Joshua 9:15 There was a moment I had with God once where I was sure I'd never get in my own way. Another lie I told myself. But I was… Continue reading 2/4/2019 Devotional

1/29/2019 Devotional

And the Lord said to Joshua, 'Do not fear and do not be dismayed.' Joshua 8:1 Sometimes I wake up with an uneasy feeling in me. It's the edge of a dark sheet slowly covering my eyes and my heart. I have a hard time pinning down joy in these moments, and it's not anything… Continue reading 1/29/2019 Devotional

1/28/2019 Devotional

But the people of Israel broke faith in regard to the devoted things... Joshua 7:1 My Bible study group is finishing reading Job: A Story of Unlikely Joy by Lisa Harper and man, is it something I needed to read. Yesterday, we watched a video that goes with the study that captures Lisa talking to two… Continue reading 1/28/2019 Devotional

1/25/2019 Devotional

So the Lord was with Joshua, and his fame was in all the land. Joshua 6:27 My dad once asked me what he could have done differently as a parent. My answer: nothing. I don't think that question is something that can be given any answer because in the heat of the present moment, you… Continue reading 1/25/2019 Devotional

1/24/2019 Devotional

And there was no longer manna for the people of Israel, but they ate of the fruit of the land of Canaan that year. Joshua 5:12 My 2019 will be the 2019 the Lord has planned. I can feel it. The course of something great coming along, and I truly believe it's why I've been… Continue reading 1/24/2019 Devotional

1/23/2019 Devotional that all the people of the earth may know that the hand of the Lord is might, that you may fear the Lord your God forever. Joshua 4:24 I chose joy yesterday. I talked to God with my husband. I met a new friend. I enjoyed the rhythm of my Tuesday. I ignored the… Continue reading 1/23/2019 Devotional