Growth is happening.
And it’s terrifying.
For the past two years I’ve struggled with acne. I’ve always had clear skin and never had to worry about something like that.
But the past two years? It’s been MY LIFE.
Every day, a frustrating battle of slathering on make up and feeling less than because the image in the mirror just doesn’t measure up.
I like to call it my “Job period,” but unlike Job, I wasn’t handling it with extreme grace and an unwavering trust in God.
I was trusting ME to fix the problem and when that wasn’t working, you know Satan would prance on in to point out how horribly I had failed.
What’s really interesting is that last week, I submitted. I told God I was sorry for being so vain and caring about something so silly. You see, it was only an emotional burden because I was MAKING it an emotional burden. If I would have focused on what God says about me, not what I CHOOSE to think about myself, then I would have been released from the psychological struggle.
But I rebelled.
God, being the good God He is heard me. And as soon as my heart was lighter, guess what?
My skin started to clear up.
I’ve been feeling nudged into eating a plant based diet and to change things up in my skin care routine. I can tell you with certainty, this wasn’t my own doing.
Because I had given up.
But once I started trade the trust I had in myself for a much stronger trust in God, life started to shape up and smooth out.
Every single time that happens.
EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.
You’d think I’d learn by now. But I’m human.
Thankfully, I have a God who is much greater.
“Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” Proverbs 31:30